I have been down this past view months, ended my 5 years relationship one day after my birthday. Quit my job that actually payed me a lot as a fresh grad, got dump from my new relationship that only survived for 2 months on Valentine's day (well I never care about that day, but somehow others care and the city was full of LOVE that day. Until even I forget the hurtful feeling for couple hours).
Anyway, I believe this just some rough patch I should cross in order to find something beautiful later. Trying to be positive to face this all things is a hard work. One day I thought I am ready to letting all the bad things go and with so much optimism planning to go ahead with my life. Then the next day I would be cluttered with so much grey cloud about the feeling of betray, not worthy and think of giving up. Then of course came along a time when I would just used soo many bad words addressed to them.
But then, I came back to the place when I am tired of hating them, I am tired to wish them a bad luck. Because keeping that inside me will not takes me any further. Well instead I would like to wish and thank you one by one.
Without the need to mention names I would just going to write one or might be several positive things I've learn from you and makes me remember you when i cross that moments.
Firstly, thank you for 3 of my 1st best friends in Malaysia, even though at the end we didn't become friends anymore. But you guys had gave me the survival kit to survive Malaysia. You've showed me different places in KL and introduced me to several buddies and made me part of your group. I won't even forget those time from my life.
Second, to a Guy that I owed apology for hurting him by ending up our 5 years relationship. I would like to send many thank and gratitude to you. You've been a biggest influence in my life a part my parents. You showed me that world is cruel, life is not like a bubble that fill with rainbows and butterfly. You were always encouraged me and believe in me with whatever step I took. Sometimes it ennoyed you because I would just tell something but never made it happen. You taught me to Love my brother and made my mother and father as always number one priority, 'because when they are gone your life will changes'. You were the person I missed the most, I got excited with and I loved. Sometime when I went to a movie, I hope I have friend like you who well got very excited and discuss every scene in the movie until our heart contained. Or just playing guessing which production house icon will appear in the beginning of every movie we watch just by listened to the jingle. I missed to have a fighting mate that not value me as a woman but a fighter. You've though me up in every way possible. I will never forget every moments we had spent together and I wish nothing for you beside happy life and a great success to catch your goal to be the richest person on earth so you can do alot of charity. Ps: Don't forget to care about nature and animals :)
Third, for the great heads of the company I was worked with. Thank you for inspired me every time we had a chance to talked. All the bosses that loved to over praise me in front of clients or others, I really thank you, because you might not realise it, but It had always boosted up my confidence and spirits to create something new and fantastic! You've showed me the good and bad leadership so I can learn from it. You guys, tough me the field that I wasn't have any idea about it at all and now, I think I can teach other about it. By me worked in your company, I found my new set of friends that now I consider them as my family and they are always kind to me. One quotes that I applied during the decision making process to just resign from your company actually came from one of you boss 'When you not passionate about your job anymore, just go resign and find your passion. Don't waste your time force it.' Really thank you for that.
Fourth, I would like to thank my dearest friend that showed me another side of life. The way you living your life has inspired me in such a way that I cannot describe. You had opened my eyes to the life afterlife, which I never even thought about it before. You are the most complicated dude I ever now, but then I realised you just trying to be strong to face all the unpleasant things around you. I admire your working and corporate attitude, soo damn professional! And your self control is amazing. Sometime along the way, I realise I still have some habits that remind me of you. Like everytime I eat with spoon and porcelain plate, I will carefully spoon my foods so there will be no friction noise that you hate the most. Everytime I see soy sauce and kinder Beuno chocolate it reminded me on how much you love both of it. Or everytime I turn on Prambors Radio, I could recall your weird crisp laugh when the announcer said something totally not funny for me :P. Thank you for encouraging me to write to help my creativity. It is totally work!. I wish you a happy life a head. Believe in your heart that you will find your peace.
Really wish from the bottom of my heart, you have eternal happy life. Because happiness is not easy to get. I cherish all the time we spent together, from where I was and what I become today. Really blessed to be able to know you all. :D
Let's Move Forward!
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